hey thanks ZHIYU!!
very happy today:) thanks for gg ECP to jog with me!n yES!u r like an ironlady i mus say!never seen my fran run so frantically continuously for an hour bfore and t this speed of urs! KUDOS to u my dear ger:) haha...good good next session i mus run more but not at ur pace lahs..haha..
so nice for u to haf droven me back n forth
and the lunch at werner's oven was great...value for money:) so next time we can drp by again n try other stuff so before tt mus exercise!haha..wait for u to be back from bintan:)
spending a lot these days on 'necessity' ..thanks mei for acc. me to town after singing class on sat:) bot a new wrking top from iora, a pair of black heels frm tangs, a new beige wrking bag frm isetan a wrking skirt from omac..wah okie dats alot of money spent:P bleah ..n also i love the tomyam soup frm food republic! tink ive gtten mei addicted to it too!simply heavenly!haha..
tmr's the start of yet another week..weekends jus came n went..
sat's class? fast song..jus sang normally but a little glad tt laoshi din really pass any neg remarks..okie next week shall do betta:)
this week gonna be based in office before heading to great wrld city for the next few weeks of field work:) great! gt direct bus!haha..tmr? full day training..shld be gg for G2's very first ktv session!yeah!sing sing n sing again!cool! tues? half day training but aint really keen to go for the farewell dinner..wed? steamboat with my colleagues..oh mans...getting fat...shall go swim tis sun hopefully...fri? gg for sports day so dat renders a half day leave n yeah off to sentosa with pals to join the hall peeps for SP night!wah sds hectic right?haha...yah n den its the weekends again!
hmm..seldom see someone so enthu over ktv before esp. when it's a he...haha..okie at least it isnt a bad thing to be enthu..
zhiyu saes im always feeling/thinking the wrg thing...oh issit?haha...oh well..dun care lahs..focus?work and dreams?no time for those babes..n yes!uve gtta gt married before me cos i wanna be ur bridesmaid!haha..
alrights hopefully the quiz tmr wun be too tough...slping time:)
for a while i thot y im in such a shitty state...the job..the hrs...staying in office till late..not euff beauty slp..not enuf time for myself..is this the life i want?m i enjoying?no idea..no clues as to want i can do or pursue other than this job..yah wadever...focus is the key to success and my success..
was still pondering if i shld attend convo ytd..oh well went in the end n yah its over!
quite good to see familiar faces and of cos taking grad photos with hs mel kj joey mandy yw iriss etc etc...think mei, dad n ma had a long wait..so paiseh..hopefully the dinner at din tai feng helped a little:)
finally its over n me wun haf to be bothered with it anymore:0
just read the mail and yes!this fri. we can wear jeans to work!yeah!!haha and this fri is pub of the month for RAs..shall ask if the rest will be dere and this weekend mus mug for a minitest for next mon's trging...
was quite surprised to see him at the audi today..not once but twice..oh well it doesnt really matter i guess..good tt me took photos with huijing and shuling!haha..my RAS colleagues:) and oh yah clarence and shenzhi specially went down, so took photos with em as well..thanks alot!nice to see u two:) haha
hmm..sprained the ankle a little and hopefully will gt better tmr...sians tmr mus go to work again..haha..so wads motivating me now? my pay!haha...okie...shall save n work twds my coach, LV and tangs n co. shoes:) yeah!
dragonfly wasnt that big it wasnt tt big afterall..
din exactly plan to go clubbing ytd..aint my interest afterall..never been to such places without the company of my hall mates, my course mates..that was at least a yr plus since ytd's visit..
senior joyce asked me to go..so as usual i wun unless ive company so 'happily' arranged one with my colleagues..n 5 out of the 8 of us went..plus 9 seniors?yah so dat makes it 14 of us or 15?
guess we were pissed cos on a fri we had to wrk till 730..y?managers dere so wad to do..dun feel lyk oso hafta fake lahs..so took a cab down with senior gg to esplanade..n me to vivo..shall claim for the fares..dats wad auditors do!claim claim n claim!
met rick hj jen jiali at modestos an italian rest. for dinner..yah n tt huge plate of ceaser salad was good..yum!of cos lahs..costed me 15bucks..nice relaxed dinner..laughed all the way..haha..so it was at least a good session after a sucky week at work:P yah..n so dey happily arrowed me as the KTV rec club for us G2! and hj for sports and siew koon for drinking..cool right?its so nice dat ive such fun loving fellow colleagues:) greatful for tt..
by the time we were done with dinner, it was alr. 10 so next? headed to dragonfly and alas cnt imagine dat i actually queued to enter a club..lotsa of wrking folks as well as bengs and lians..good dat we had a fellow guy colleague-sam with us..but poor him, one guy hafing to 'look after' for gers..haven had so much drinks since last year at profs place..yah n i mean a vodka lime+ vodka shot(courtesy of sam)+ vodka ribena+vodka red bull+whisky!cool! but i still prefer my vodka lime..the feeling? feels alright as least we were all in a relaxed mood, so high i guess..oh man! luckily i was still sober, jus can really walk straight but i knew wads gg on ard me:P we headed to the dance floor, so packed so packed, we were all so closed to oneanother, so many ppl e ard us...the music was alright..din notice sly was on stage though i remembered his sgs being sang..oh well..grateful dat sam was ard protecting and watching over us..thanks!so nice of u!:)
hj puked and was quite seh..sam's briefcase gt all the puke and me n shuling had to head for the toilet to clean oursleves..me din really gt it though..poor ger hopefully u r feeling much better..
its true tt we cnt drink too much such tt we totally lose ourselves..i noe im tired twds the end..headed twds our little table n was glad tt the guy gave up the seat for me..him?whus him?i aint sure, cun be bothered but jus knew tt hes mingbao's fran or colleague.luckily i knew wad i was doing..luckily i was in control luckily i din jus listen to wad he offered..oh my! thanks sam for cming over..yah he aint my bf n i knew..so gtta thank u for looking out for me..so one wrd of caution: gtta lookout for another
so left at 2 plus and one of the seniors drove me n hj home..so exhausted tt i jus plonged myself on the sofa n concussed..completely! hangover? nah..still managed to wake up to gif tuition at 1030..
todays class was oki..i gtta grab hold of the cd n practise!at least miaoru and mei says this suits my vocal more:)yeah..so next week weve gtta be geared for a fast song..elva's cuppucino..okie gtta really learn this week...
looking fwd to G2's ktv session on the 30th july mon after training after work!
betta stop the crap...hopefully doesnt continue but cant control the dreadful feeling..the last thing is to go bk to tt feeling 3 yrs ago..n i wish it wun occur
mb its stress, mb its lack of sleep mb its of other reasons which i cant pinpoint..
if ya were to ask me hw im feeling now...i can tell u straight tt i aint happy with the fact tt ive to wake up early and work till late...aint totally awake..im like a walking zombie,hate seeing my eyebags darkening, hate to listen to the gossips rel. to office..worst, thanking my seniors for being so kind to forewarn me bt the spinsters managers in office..thanks for telling me tt i will die under tt newly promoted director..it wun help by saeing tt she favours guys and will vent her anger on gers n not only gers but add the word pretty to it n u r cfm gg to suffer badly under her...sheesh..
hey!im being employed to learn n work not for pple to rant at! not here to tolerate the managers shit!yah being the lowest in the rank doesnt worth much but cant u jus think of urself in the past? dun u all haf some EQ? WTF!
gtting all emo bt it cos 10 days time i will b on a job with 3 guys and the darn director..dunno hw bad she is and i noe it aint fair to jus judge her jus by listening to my seniors comments etc..oh well, if shes not so evil, will pple detest her till like dat?i dunno..i jus wanna pray hard dat i wun die too terribly..will cfm die but hope wun die too badly..
it mus be lack of slp n the setting in of yet another rd of depression?the feeling seems to be appearing yet again..3 yrs ago now...oh pls! tmrs finally fri. again!good! but cant come bk to slack at home..for my future?will i haf one?sds bleak but whu noes..sians..yah gg dragonfly with the rest of the colleagues after work..nv been dere before so shall go chill..n yah think joyce does haf an agenda for asking me to go with them.,,n babe!it doesnt help by telling me dat piece of info and its scary to be in the office now..dun try too hard cos i aint trying and mb none will fit the bill..thanks for the thot though babe!
sleeping time..seems like im only enjoying myself during my slping hours and singing class...the rest of the time?im only hoping ill be aslp..seriously..if living is so hard..forget it..i dun mind not being a being..yah
today aint exactly a good day to start with..i knew it so i was prepared for today..
met daph at the station at 8 and went to office..at least her office looks more friendly and its so easy to find cable points lahs...okie so off we were doing our timesheet and with me doing it for the first time in my life i bet i did piss daph off...thanks ger for being so patient with me and thanks for hekoing me with it...yah after dat went for trging frm 9 to 5..
thot tt me cld haf a good lunch with huijing n daph n here came the much dreaded msg frm senior asking me to send her the visio file...okie whose fault?yah my fault guess din pass to her on fri..dats y ...so no choice had to be back in office during lunch break to pass her the file...
really appreciative for my colleagues presence..seriously speaking its weird to go back office durin the miserable 1hr n 20 mins lunch break to check email lahs..so weird..okie ive gt company..its really nice of him to accompany me back to office even when he realised tt the trainer had locked the room and he cun gt connected without his token..
tink hes the most gentlemanly of all...really impressed! carried my lappie even when i said it was okie, opening and holding doors for us, always letting us walk first, so ever polite..offered to help me keep the heavy lappie in his locker, still insisting on carrying when the lappie bag isnt tt heavy without the contents..n thanks for queuing for the fishball beehoon for me..feeling so guilty tt me din even ask wad ya wanna eat and u had to take ba cho mee...thank you!
surprised tt u noticed wad i ate dat day and remembered tt i do tk lotsa of veg...thanks for ur msges to remind me on this n that...and the reminding me on little things as insig. as switching off the wireless when using the cable..oh my!this is really helpful..thoughtful of u!
assume dat u r this nice to everyone..yah..haha..its so nice to haf someone showing u the attention and in a surprising way..
so a mad rushy day with a surprise lunch company..n i guess it made my day feel better and today shall haf a good night sleep:)
thanks n all i can say is thanks a lot dude! mb this its onli in the bix areana ladies will be treated in this manner..othertimes?u wish!
yah mei's true...its only a week of work and im like sians..haha..mb i aint used to it yet..wadever
ytd's lesson was slack..warmed up in the studio..real surprised when laoshi commented dat wu di dongs aint suitable for me..quite relieved when our music exec. said it sded not bad..perplexed cfm..ive been singing dat for a long time..a must for ktv n it aint suitable? pondered and cant really think of a reason..mei says its cos tanyas wild..he said i wun be able to sing coco's as well..okie..so gtta choose a new sg n gtta prep 4 more...tough..hopefully he will gif me the nod next sat...
at least a bit comforted to noe tt he acknowleges my effort to minimise my falsetto usage..thanks laoshi...thanks for ur comment n ill work hard!
okie gtta go prac. n slp n meet daph real early tmr!
shall do a quick update, nap for half hr before tuition starts at 11am ltr...
wanna complain bt the access to the company's system...wad the crap..difficulty in accessing the intranet and stuff...cant complete much things at home..shall go bk office next mon and see if i can gain access from there...means ive gtta be there real early so that if it fails then ive gt time to go to the IT dept to seek HELP!!alas!mans..submit timesheet check project schedules and stuff den off for a day's training on bix etiquette..
everything seems to be gg on so fast esp. when u r at work..oh mans!im like living in my own world lahs...my fellow associates r in office some on job while some aint..they had a training yesterday while ive been heading to client's place somewhere in yio chu kang...yah true tt ive my seniors with me..no need to be in office, no need to squeeze with the 'mrt' crowd and lunch crowd but ive gt so many things undone!haven met up with my performance manager so dat explains the email which ive jus sent haven managed to settle the comp thing...haven learnt how to use the e-eave etc...wah!...stressed stressed..
good things...take the non-cramped bus 43 to work..have a fixed room of our own to do internal audit..getting to noe seniors better..honing my interviewing skills, getting better with my heels, training up arm muscles carrying my darn heavy laptop daily..and yah! managed to complete one visio flowchart on my own! for me its a feat cos ive nv done one gd one in my life before..though had an exam on it in ntu i din even noe if ive gtten it right or wrong,finally after rds of interviewing the process owners ive gt it up and my senior in charge of the project said its okie and shell jus amend the technical aspects!happy!
one really heartwarming thing was tt one of my colleagues whus wellknown for his gentleman-li-ness...(haha..of cos theres no such word!) msged me to tell me bt next week's training and offered to help me tell the secretary if im able to nk it or not...so nice right and also asked bt my job n stuff..so nice..jus when i thot im forgotten...haha..mb i aint afterall..oh yah wanna thank huijing as well for helping me book my convo leave ger!urgghh...
apart from next mon's training it will be at yck again for the rest of the week to do testing..looking fwd to next sun cos im bringing pei out for harry porter though o haven watched a single epi dun mind bringing her out!yah so after dat ill be busy helping to wrap up the project i guess...my job? its like doing a massive proj jus tt weve gt deadlines to meet..and after this ive been booked on another mega one...gd at least gt 2 more associates with me and this client's place is gonna to be near to my house!great..can forsee myself being occupied till sept!
so far...everydays packed even suns till the last sun of july! tmrs gg ecp to jog with zhiyu!cant wait mans and thanks ger for wanting to go w me!thanks i need the exercise!haha!next movie with pei...next next dinner with shanx n co? packed till i cant believe,shall leave my sundays untouched so tt i can gif myself a breather and slack at home...
tink falling sick..sighh..its hard to earn money...studying is better...but wad to do..im being paid for the work i do...n i will seek enjoyment in wad im doing be positive be optimistic cos this is the only way to keep me gg to keep me focus to keep me on track so tt ill reach my destination in the years to come..its hard it comes with sacrifices but its part and parcel of life...i noe i will get wad i want eventually...yes that's wads keeping me going for now
first day at work, first day of formal work, first day earning my 2+k work stinct..feeling? hmm..apprehensive yet its quite alright cos ive gt my frans with me..at least ive gt huijing- vj cum hall 3 cum jcrc pal..feeling quite glad tt we r able to 'click'..phew..just when we thought there r only 6 of us being recruitment, clarus told me tt his fran samuel is in RAS too..so i guess he shld be 'the' samuel whom ive talked online bfore and ya hes his fran..hmm..wonder how he looks like in person..okie..bet clarus will intro him to us tmr..good so 5 gers n 2 guys n they can help us carry lappie!haha...so rick wun be e only one carrying!haha..oh well we aint so mean lahs..
mums up with funny ideas again..cmon ma...go there to work not to 'bio' guys lahs..haha..its realli nice for hj to have told me bt my unit's culture...urghh..its awful to noe tt our partners actually designated the first fri of every mth for drinking!oh my!and yes we do get free drinks but we aint alcoholics!alas...n this fri is the first fri!die die! fri will definitely b dragged there after work n drink..sheesh! n the upcoming welcome party will be at a club most probably...dis will be a large large scale one..even worse..sighh...hopefully it will b on a sat so ive gt classes so its my priority! quite disappointed tt theres no gym membership only for seniors and above den we will gt one at legends, fort canning..so wait lorhs..meanwhile gtta use public pool and public tracks..nvm..slowly ill see the word 'exclusive' appearing..
finally met up with council frans ytd!short but fun...the bois r still the same..haha..not really surprising..haha..as lame as ever lahs..tink its great cos i guess this is how we remain on the same frequency?aha..aint really sure but sort of sensed tt clarence, darius n zhenhao were quite sian when we were toking bt work related stuff..sorry dudes..this is called zhi ye bing!:( oh ya emma joined us after dinner at ben n jerry's..yum yum! thanks emma for sending me home!haha..no nid to walk home!haha...thanks!
tmrs gonna b a lg day cos company arranged an outdoor bbq dinner with the big shots...good to noe whu r my bosses but really afraid tt dey will drown us to death:( since its bbq shant eat since they aint healthy shall cm bk n eat the bowl of veg which mum will prep. tmr:) wah...yum yum!
sun's treatment gonna be the last..okie sort of a relief..n me shall drp by the hairdresser to trim those tresses..so this means tt me cmi for sun's ktv with ct pals:( so sad but no choice lehs..next sun me has gt facial..work starts means only free on sun..so im packed..aiyos n me shall stay at home on sun..to haf dinner..rest sleep..its a long way to go but ill reach dere, we wll reach there..